title: holed me whole

media: song/music video

duration: 3:00

year: 2018

context: holed me whole is a song and music video produced in the bathroom of my parents’ home, the home where i grew up. created during a winter-break visit in 2018, in the midst of ‘coming out’ and grappling with various parts of myself, the song is a celebration of joy in an expanse of trauma, a safer space within a home that didn’t feel so. holed me whole was released on instagram with the following caption: 'this winter break was the roughest ever, and i want to take this moment to thank you all for lending an ear, sometimes a tongue, but always your hearts to my struggles. know that i am always holding space for you if you ever need it. i really appreciate you all and am dedicating this song + music video i made while at home in kolkata, in my bathroom, the only space i felt remotely safe in, to you. i’ve tried to hold myself, but maybe if you held me too, i (we) could finally holed me (us) whole. 💜'